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I didn’t know what I was doing

And I went off track

I made a mistake

That I can’t take back



I can’t erase the past

No matter how much I want to

I can’t forget or replace what I did

What I did to me and you



I gave you what you wanted

I did what you asked

I told you what you wanted to hear

And promised it would last



But inside I was confused

I was lost, I was scared

And what we had before that

Could never be repaired



I didn’t know what I felt

I didn’t know what I thought

I was making you happy

But now you’re distraught



I tried to convince myself

That this was what I wanted – that it was ok

But I realised it wasn’t real

As I was lying to myself day after day



I didn’t want to hurt you again

So I let it carry on

Pretending I loved you

Even though it was wrong



When things were happening

I blanked out in my body, in my head

No thoughts, no feelings time again

But nothing was ever said



No one approved of it

No one was happy for me

But I wrote it off

This was how it was supposed to be



Is what it thought

Until I looked at myself

My life was falling apart

And so was my health



I did things you shouldn’t

Not when you’re with someone

Everything was a mess

What had I done?



I wasn’t being fair

On myself or you

I had to sort it all out

I did what I had to



I didn’t want to hurt you

And I feared what you’d do

But I couldn’t leave it like this

So we were through



I thought I was doing the right thing

For the first time in my life ever

I was scared and still confused

But I knew you wouldn’t forgive me ever



You were crazy about me

And I had to find the strength

To look you in your hopeful eyes

And say my goodbyes



You were broken

You were torn

I’d ruined your trust

As I didn’t do what I’d sworn



It hurt me too see

Your heart fall to pieces

Knowing it was all my fault

And I had no excuses



I’m sorry for what I’ve done

I’m sorry for hurting you

I’m sorry for crushing your hopes

And your dreams for us too



I messed up and I’m sorry

I still really care about you

You will always be a part of me

And I hope that someday

You’ll find it in your heart

To forgive me.