What is this Grace?

I look far away from your way,
These are the days I have run from, 
How could you look for me, don’t you know the reason that I hide under the sun? 
Are you blind to see all that I have done? 
Forsake me God as you ought to, for I have long abandoned you!
I am ashamed and I won’t show my face, 
What is this Grace, what is this grace?
Oh my God, why do you dare withhold your wrath on a heart so cold? 
What is the extent of your long suffering?
Does your patience wear in face of my unceasing apathy? 
Its true when I am faithless you still remain faithful because you cannot deny yourself,
I know you remain faithful but why do you remain faithful to me in all of my blasphemy?
I am not asking because I want to try you, I just don’t understand why call me your own when I have denied you. 
You hold me so close my God, 
You are so good to me,
You are so kind and merciful,
You promised me long ago that you would forever keep me, 
I asked you Lord to never leave me. 
I knew I would soon run from you 
So I pleaded to you weeping asking that you would always seek me,
And even to this day you have been with me despite my mistakes
I don’t understand how it is you that God had forsake 
Why would you so perfect and holy lay down your life as an all sin atoning sacrifice taking my rightful place? 
Oh what is this Grace? God help me, I don’t understand what is this grace?

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