With Open Arms

You want to know whats it like
to have your doctor look you in the eye.
And say "Your Renal Failure has reached the point
that at any given moment you can die"

Your body will go into siezure
then in a coma you will be.
Then not long after that
your heart will no longer beat.

I froze in the chair where I sat
with wide eyes that could not see.
I thought this happens to other people
this cant be happening to me.

But I had known for over six months
this day was going to come.
I had been going through those days
my mind and body numb.

The doctor had said there was a process
and I will explain it to you.
And after weeks of real hard thinking
I decide it was something I did'nt want to do.

Three out of five days a week
An eighty mile round trip I would go.
And lay for three hours or more
while through a machine my blood would flow.

I discussed my decision with my family
tho saddened they understand.
And would respect the reasons that I gave
and be there to hold my hand.

I am not a real reglious man
but I do believe in my God
And I know when it's my time to go
He will welcome me with open arms.

withpen_inhand
August 20, 2011

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Dont really seem much more to say,,

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