I won’t regret this
If you can’t save me
Still I don’t know
If even I can save myself
But there’s more to this
Than I can think to feel
Maybe if I breathe deep
Into me it will appear
Sweetly it calls my name
And I cannot resist
The beauty of the memory
I chase with everything I am
Only to fall further away
From the only faith I’ve known
And as of late, it’s turned
Into a much deeper pain
The illness hangs
Like a picture on a wall
Unable to erase itself
Of the fickle happiness
That created its beauty
And in vain attempts
It begs of itself to fade
Into sheer oblivion
Today I realized
Unloved letters remain
Stashed away in my heart
Like an unlit candle
I have yet come to terms
That purpose has put meaning
In this dismal existence
Into keeping me so dimly lit