A Common Girls Name

you cloud my mind
making me forget its Christmas tomorrow.
a feeling like this doesn't come easily for me
i fight this, i cant win.
i try to keep distance but i slip
on the steep incline
allowing you to slide right into this void in my heart.
its a one way street, the feelings are now irreversible
the uncomfortable feeling of warmth is kicking in
yet i am so frightened it may be fake or may quickly fade away.
its too soon to tell, witch furthers me falling into an over-thinking hell.

the piece fits, but the threading is stripped
its easy for you to damage my trust
but this connection is an irresistible lust
i have a sensitive heart,
and you are among the few to have found it.
don't take advantage because it will fall apart
i hate myself for letting my guard down.
but i love that i no longer feel alone
i rejoice, for things make sense for once
but don't destroy this. for this is, is all i have
i pray this isnt an illusion and good things will come our way,
someday.

Author's Notes/Comments: 

this feeling of vulnerability is making nauseous. i now remember why i push a lot of people away.

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