Half Hearted Apology

this pain

this torment

this horrible venture

this nightmarish journey

when will it end

will it ever end

what have i done

how could this happen

to me

to you

it isnt fair to either party involved

i want something i can never have

something i should never want

never be

never need

i didnt want it to end like this

i didnt want it to end

but was there another option

was there another way to make things work

make things run

the earth spin

the room spin

my head spin

it hurts

it stings

falling all over myself

falling faster

i didnt want to do this

i didnt want to drag you down

dont listen to me

it doesnt mean a thing

doesnt ammount to much

never has

probably never will

its ok

no its not

never is

damaged

damaging

destroyed

down to not much more than a single thread

and i brought you along

ruined you

destroyed you

almost robbed you of all the good in you

all the magic you once had

still have

im sorry

two words that could never say enough

mean what i meant it to mean

what i still mean it to mean

im sorry

death to my heart

death to all that is me

i dont want to drag you to your doom

i dont...

i dont...

never

making no sense

not anymore

i should shut up

i should say no more

no more

im sorry

so sorry

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