Rundown (or Starting Over)

I looked into your eyes and felt myself

Float away into a starry night,

Beautiful starry night.

I got lost in your arms

And for a moment we were one.

You taught me how to love.

You were so real to me.

You looked at me

Like I was everything

You're looking for.

You made me good inside,

AND THEN YOU RAN AWAY.

Why did you fucking run away?

You stole my love

And ripped my heart away.

You take away until there's nothing left.

I fell fast.

You left me broken.

I'm falling from the sky,

Nothing can stop me now.

You like to watch me fall.

You wanted me to die.

All alone,

Emptiness is what I have known.

You left me with this pain,

It left me with my hate.

What i'd give just to feel

Happiness agian.

Why do I hold on

When YOU JUST LIE TO ME?

You always fucking lie to me.

Play your games

And rip me all apart.

Wear me down

Until there's nothing left,

You push me down

To see me broken.

Now i see through the lies

I lived.

I see what my love meant to you.

You thought I couldnt start over again.

You knock me down

So i will need you,

But I DONT NEED YOU NOW!

Author's Notes/Comments: 

A pre-lude to "raped" This was just before I broke apart the feelings of neediness and shame. This was when I was discovering what exactly was happening to me....
The name starting over came later when I realized that was what I had been trying to do all along.

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