Always, All Ways

Like a tattoo or a surgery scar
This is here with me for always, all ways.
I could soar out of reach, shoot like a star,
But no new environs could avert its gaze.
It has made its intentions perfectly clear
And smiled in glee to see me crumble.
Yes, it is most determined to stay here,
Basking in delight each time I stumble.
One may think the past can be locked away,
Held in suspension under the floorboards,
But sooner or later they do give way
And reality breaks free and flies towards.
Though I may have thought it a remnant of former days
It has made a reservation for always, all ways.

Author's Notes/Comments: 

Expanding on this one may prove dangerous to my tear ducts. It seems I've always spent my life looking back over my shoulder – not necessarily out of a sense of paranoia, but out of a fear that I couldn't leave anything well enough alone. I've always seemed to have this leaf-in-the-wind vulnerability that threatens often to capsize me, even if the waves aren't choppy, even if I really toughen up. It's always going to be here. This was written in the spring of 2012 and is the only inclusion here from my self-titled collection, which is one of my particular favorites, released June 7, 2012.

 

 

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