I'm Me

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Poems About Me

Do you see what I see?
Do you feel what I feel?
You don't know what I know
Or have what I've had, all my life
You couldn't walk in my shoes even if you tried
I'm the only one who can truly feel my pain
I walk through life feeling the same
Wishing for once that something would change
But it never really does
My life's an endless routine as I've gotten older
It seems I had more fun in my memories
I've been hurt too many times
I care about people but people don't do that for me
They just see me as another person
I want to change the world because I know it needs it
But I'm only one person, I don't have that strength
I've been lied to, walked on, picked on
It seems sometimes that I can't do anything right
I always try to tell myself I'm perfect the way I am
But it's not enough when no one tells me the same
It's hard to explain why I cry
It's hard to understand my anger
I talk to people but I don't think they get it
I almost want to fall into my imagination
The dreams I have are where I feel I belong
No one thinks I'm normal
I've always been described as "different"
But I'm fine with that, it's me
No one can even imagine what goes on in my mind
No one would realize that it's harder than it seems
I have many sides of me
The temper comes from the backstabbing I've witnessed and felt
The tears come from the broken promises and empty lies
The smile on my face is real
But all these feelings are locked inside
It doesn't take much to set them free
I need someone to love me as I am
Because I feel like I'm not good enough
I've always felt a waste of space
Time moves too fast for me
I can't seem to live life the way I want to
There's always something blocking my path
If you gave me half a chance
Instead of just walking away and giving up
You'd realize that I'm hurting
I need a helping hand
To catch me when I fall
Because it seems I do this too much
But not many people understand that
What I say is not what I mean
I just want someone to care
Sometimes I feel like I have no one
I don't like to feel alone
I'm me and that's all that tells the tale
I can't tell you everything
Even if I did, you wouldn't understand

Author's Notes/Comments: 

This is about how I feel almost everyday. I'd write more but it would be more of a book than a poem then. I went through a depression not too long ago. I felt worse than this but I've gotten a lot better. It's hard to explain everything about me but what you really need to know is that I need someone who cares about me. I need someone that will never leave because that seems to happen a lot to me. I need someone to tell me I'm wrong about how I feel and instead of hurt me, help me. But everyone walks away or causes me to walk away. There's more to me but that's all for now.

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