Stylus & Heart
Jacqueline walked out and broke my vibe, then slipped away
heavy with coats and silver coins. She
stripped berries from thorny briars in frozen fields,
and with bruised knuckles patched her worn shawl.
Now old needles drag with a backdrop of sputtering
grease and tea, and the tiny glass horse we bought at the
shop, has tilted sideways then gone cracked. I have
placed a heavy coin on its cracked base for counterweight.
Our room has re-settled itself to colder air, it
only speaks to me now, and the bedroom shelves
keep a fortress of Ibuprofen in massive foil sheets,
which I take for blankets.
Late evenings I wander to the square, and lean against a driver's
shelter by the station, watching the crowd of commuters
dissolve into trains. Heavy iron gates swing to lock
out stray dogs and beggars,with a closing ritual
of slamming heavy doors on stone.
My shadow does battle with my frame, creating shapes of
bleak despair, and I hold woolen scarves full of her forgotten
perfume to lean against for safety. While quiet
passersby glance from damp lampposts at sudden
collapses like Edwardian photographs.
With no hope I can stage a tournament of eccentricities,
and beat a copper drum, to summon allies in black boots
from concrete tunnels and forgotten basements. We'll all
toss our dreams at the sparks of a dying blaze in a brazier,
I mean, I wouldn't want to break tradition.
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