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I used to thing that love was something that you

Earned and received from someone else.

I struggled for a long time to earn it.

And wondering what I had done to deserve to be so alone.

I never had a real relationship in High School or College.

I longed for it, but didn’t know what it entailed.

I thought that I had to work hard day and night to get it.

Or that it was something that not everyone received.

I sat in the darkness and longed for someone to come along

And turn the light on and just hand me love.

I often envisioned my life as a room.

With no windows and only one door.

The light off and I was unable to turn it on.

The light representing love given to me.

But I did not know that I did have the power to turn the light on.

I had thought that I loved myself that I cared about me.

It took having my feelings being burned

In front of me to show me the truth.

It did take a while, but I have cleaned the

Ashes from my eyes and the haze is finally clearing

I see now that what I thought years ago was false.

I did not care and love myself to the fullest extent.

I am no claiming that I love and care for

Myself to the fullest now.

But I see clearer now.

I see that there is help around me.

Both in friends and family and the spirit guides

That I have.

All I need to do when I am down is to look up

And ask for help

There is a constant stream of Love out there,

And I was rejecting it and not letting it in.

Well I am opening the door to my little room.

There is a whole house.

With many gifts and talents that are waiting for me.

The light is on it may not be the brightest light out there

But it is all that I ever needed.

I surrounded myself with so much protection because of the hurt.

I had felt and received over the years.

Every time adding to the layers of armor I put up.

All this did is serve to further distance myself from what I wanted.

The truth was always there in front of my eyes I was just too blind to see it.

I have thought of how to break down these layers I put up.

I worked long and hard to try to tear them down.

Yet I never seemed to get anywhere,

One would come down just to be replaced by another one.

So with turning on my own light and I am trying a new tactic.

I am going to stop trying to tear down the layers,

And I am going to just focus on bringing in love.

No longer will I focus on breaking my bad habits.

I will build up new habits.

This time good ones.

I will draw in love.

But most importantly I will give love to myself.

I should show kindness to myself as well.

Now that I am on my way I see the signs

That have always been there.

I can respond correctly.