Painted Doll

I stare at myself as I look

look into that blasted glass

and saw myself as I shook

and realized that I was an ass

I let myself become painted by

society, let my tears fall blue

and although I tears I cry,

they were painted by you.

Yet I layer on my mask

layers and layers of crushed rock

talc, as I reassume my task

and brush a fashionably curled lock

of hair.

Taught by others to cover my face

and taught that you had to hide

as you, in their footsteps, traced

and only found a hole in which I cried,

hating my inner self because it

didn't reflect my outer shell

thinking as I put on this shit

that it would all turn out well,

that you'd care.

So I'm a painted doll with a painted face

going on and on about how society is wrong

and how the pain within it is laced

and that your true self should be strong,

yet I'm a painted doll,

watch me shatter as I fall..

Author's Notes/Comments: 

I woke up one day, looked in the mirror, and realized how stupid makeup was.

ca 2003

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