hustling has different meanings

Hustling has different meanings

So I am either gangster

Or I sold my dignity

To the one person who said I might have some.

And as the morning took possession of the night

She asked me what my boundaries had to do with reality,

And how far would I go next time

Just to feel real?

And when we had no life

Suicide seemed real good,

With the mere loss of life,

Suicide seems foolish,

And so the question is,

What are we living?

We go on

Not to repair anything

Just to cope with the fact

That we might be going on for nothing.

We demand God’s head

Because he cursed us to being Christians

Even with his death.

We want to jack someone else off,

Because teasing his isolation

Relieves some of our own,

And this is what we call keeping company.

And it seems that I am at my happiest

When I admit to my depression,

And I know that I could be a savior to many now,

But I did not sacrifice shit,

They earned their money.

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