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Prayer
The beginning of a prayer that goes like this
God keep me safe and never let me miss
Those who broke my heart
Memories that tear me apart
Keep my mind in check
So that I do not make myself sick
I can handle the physical ailment
But never the hearts stalemate
For the king has already been crowned
Walked away and turned around
But the distance does not erase
So I try to replace
The missing pieces of my throne
Try to reclaim my heart as my own
My kingdom is in shambles
My love is conditional with preambles
I cannot give what is not there
But I promise to do my best and care
Keep this hollow frame solid
Do not let me remain wounded
My undoing has begun
When I realized I was the only one
The only one who still longing
Every lonely night and early morning
Sleep does not cure as time does not erase
The memories I try to bury or replace
Like cobwebs in the corner
I gravitate towards being a loner
Because I can only fake my smile
For just a little while
Then the mask begins to shatter
And I tire of idle chatter
Winning a battle in a losing war
I cannot face what you have in store
Why do you try me so
When all I need is to let go
So dear god make me numb
Or to the bottle I will succumb
And join you sooner than planned
For alone in this world I cannot stand
