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united provinces 1905
the manifold
the very manifold by which we relate motion to substance or mass or er whatever
whats space made of
how can we pose questions that we have no intuition to answer- that are beyond our possibilities to answer
if its not ephemeral its ethereal- the fish asking whats water on that over commercialized-gag- cultural stock now
and the real shame of it is i read infinite jest- talk about overrated
shit shit shit
where to go from here
motion- what you lose yourself to by just having mass and taking up space
every moment in these radiant emanations
its really just yourself- the essence of becoming self aware trying to escape- it is atomic suicide in relativistic terms
the em waves that escape from your atoms
to clarify what we are talking about
motion- yourself to all ends of the universe- but its you keep going
sacrificing more of itself for immortality- the spirit of adventure- to light what until it gets there has always been dark
the visible trail of degeneration and chaos- some of it must be of visible frequency- just gets to the visible edge when a photon from a nearby sun deconstructs it
oh but wait- a little time- form- i wont begin to wonder why it must escape itself
something i can answer
it escapes itself because matter, space, energy, time eventually become self aware
and its a fucking giant drag to itself
and it tries to outrun this phenomenon
my belief in God
the material becomes self aware
and if we have this definition
its proven true
She drags her feet, she tries, if she could just get far enough and cold
She knows how painful it will bee to all her photo sensitive, electircal conduit, gamete producing, sticking together, muscles- sensory machinery
She knows where she slept last night
and tomorrow to get up and keep fed
although
although self denial and aseticism are more noble notions
She isnt noble
She is spontaneous
and moving- it just happens
like the little canniculi that are all through space suck it like a vacuum away from Her
like a lush or a junkie, just get the fucking needle away
then its space and not God, even if they are one
I think theyl be from Holland, if from anywhere
that kid fishing out plastic from the ocean
fighting sea level you learn to appreciate the spontaneous motion of physical solid objects
reverence does not equal submission
thats where some of our more sensitive major religions got it wrong
everyone gets there own rocket ship
there own dutch rocket ship
and you get nuclear thrusters or whatever that can go relativistic speeds
and all life from a divergent center out past the microwaves- past what dont sound good on a receiver
you can wave but i wont
accelerate instantly- all parts of your body
a streak if you move your hand?
a streak that stays there forever?
all motion captured and superimposed until its all one color
its like tripping-when you finally die
