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No one knows whats inside because i hide my pain
with a perfectly good smile,painted on top of  my frown.
I feel like a clown in a circus everyone laughs at this show,
they think is funny but inside i'm hunted! like a house of a tainted soul..
I feel so cold my bones are frozen & my hearts broken.
I hate feeling this interrupted...
I ain't impressed by this shit i feel disturb like i'm losing my mind.
Like a few marbles are misplaced i just tryan fight the devil and pray to God to keep my screws tight inside my head! My thoughts run like a water faucet!
I wish i had a switch to shut off this shit,but i aint a which,
i cant do magical tricks...
All i can do is wish upon a star for my dreams to one day come true...
I mean!
When i go to sleep you would think atleast i'm at peace
but im not because my dreams brings me awaken to screams,if not panic attacks take my breath a way...
I feel like i'm dieing..
I just want an excape away from these emotions of such disgrace!i feel mentally raped...  
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I wanna cry but my tears are afriad of what damage would
come from raining my pain...
I feel like a burden to my own spirit!
I hope God can help me through this because right now i feel like i'm playing tug a war with the devil,& my soul...
Its like please send some angles to protect me from it!
Sometimes i doubt the creator because its like if he don't give you to much you can bare,then why im still going through so much?
It aint fair i shoulden't feel that way but i'm scared!
I know with the faith the size of a mustard seed
i should be alright.Atleast thats what i heard..
I hope my ears ain't telling me a lie & i can get through this storm 2 fine,until then the sun is gone...
I'm lost where even the stars dont twinkle & the moon dont shine,its pure darkness where i stand! the kind thats deeper
then you see at night.
Its like i'm in hell & the only light i see is the flames burning
within my eyes,from the devils body heat...
I hate my thoughts are interrupted by such pain,i want is a excape  from this situration..
I pray God take my wounds heal me & sweep me off my feet,with happiness,i'm scared i don't wanna die like this..
I'm afriad of looking down at a funeral where no one loved me & the beast is laughing!
I feel depression kicking my ass like a uncureable dieases.
I just want to be happy will i ever be?