Broken Tears

I wish I could change the way my emotions work.

inside I shine a bright yellow like the sunrise.

my smile warms the world yet my eyes are mysterious.

you never know when they going 2 change from

stars to dark clouds pouring drops of rain from inside.

Inside, my heart is beautiful as a perfectly picked rose.

it needs light to grow & flourish into more than beauty.

It’s trapped in darkness consumed by sadness.

what do I do 2 unlock myself from this cage I’m stuck in?

longing for peace

but my garden has been tampered with.

I feel violated,

Invaded by the different mood swings of my emotions!

what do I do about all these different feelings?

I need a healing from my thoughts.

you make my soul sing & my heart dance with fireflies

yet you keep me singing the blues, tired of the same

tunes wishing I was with you,

hoping one day I can hang onto more than this cross

necklace you sent me.

send me you, a perfect gift in my arms so I can feel the

happiness you make me feel inside.

He upsets me with his tantrums, getting into shit

making me want to hang him by his toes!

I guess that’s the boy in him.

I will always love & cherish him because no matter what,

he's my little man. I’ll always love him & Doug

but I’m incomplete without my little woman.

she was my lady bug.

It’s getting closer to her birthday.

I wish I could be right there to see her face when

she turns 10.

I wish I could escape out of this storm I been

sitting in for years.

I pray to god to heal me from my wounds

& broken tears.

he still hasn’t answered me, but until he does,

A part of me will be sore trying to maintain my sanity.

I got 2 wonderful men in my life helping me through.

I should be fine for now.

I know that although she gone, deep inside my heart, she’s still mine.



"there are different kind of tears. Mine are broken because they aren’t happy; they broke & inside my pain is exposed"--Lasohnda Harris

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