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if i tried
Growing up was miserable!with parents
wrapped & tucked up in there self,a father
who left for his own selfish reasons...
A mama who disappeared into crack & alcohol
Kids teased me because i ain't fit in
there popularity at all...
I felt depressions walls collapse around
me!My self-esteem started to fall in a places
it ain't belong...
Walking through the woods of loneliness...
No matter how hard i tried to find my way
through the confusement of my childhood
where everything,seemed useless...
I hurt & mental anguish still cuts me with a
sharp knife..
My wounds started to bleed nonstop like
red waterfall overflowing inside me
I hope she never be like me,wearing her
heart on the wrong sleeve took by thieves & torn apart..
Virginity stolen by thieves at thirteen!
I can never fix those bruises there stuck
there for life...
I wasn't ready i was to Young to be making
adult choices...
I made them at 15 when she was conceived...
her dad decided Sherm was better then me
& he,had to leave his responsibility...
It hurt but not for to long because she was my
happiness a little gurl,taken away from me at three
Just when she seemed like a new
start to my shattered world...
She was like an angel!sheltered me with her
wings & brought the broken pieces of me
back together...
The state broke them to tiny unrepairable fragments...
Sitting on the sink in the bathroom looking
through distorted images of this gurl,trying to figure
out who she was...
Who am i with out my daughter the one person who accepted
loved & never judge me...
She where the happiness running through my veins
like the wind,when they took her my heartbeats
started to faint!
Further & further i started to slip away like a ghost
i vanished,in a world that seemed dead...
There's not a night that goes by that i don't think
about her...
Wondering how she sleep,if i'm missed like she is?
I told myself i'd never have another kid because
she could never be replaced...
Years passed by with her still on my mind!
I got unexpectedly pregnant with her brother he
doesn't make up for lost times of her & me...
He's just another edition to our family...
I love him very much he's treated no differently then
i treated her!
Only difference is she seen more smiles then he do.
I'm trying to change that fact & build a brick wall
around my cries,so he don't see the raining drops
of pain behind them...
Its hard keeping the liquids inside without her
here by my side...
I feel apart of me is missing that i can never
get back if i tried
