Now I’m afraid. (5/13/05)

Now I’m afraid of silence

When I used to be afraid of your voice.

Now I’m afraid of being alone

When all I ever wanted to do was escape.

Now I’m afraid for the day to end.

When I used to always be one day ahead.

Now I’m afraid of the dark

When I once felt burned by the sun.

Now I’m afraid of sleep

When I used to dream of never waking up.

Now I’m afraid of getting too close

When I used to be so forward.

In silence I’m peace less and broken.

In loneliness I’m faced with my own unaffectionate soul.

In the sunset I wish I could do it all over again, I beg for the chance to make it all right.

In darkness I’m surrounded by candles that won’t light.

In my slumber I’m haunted by the past

Disguised as a dream; refusing to let go.

In an embrace I feel vulnerable and transparent.

Now I’m afraid they’ll know.

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