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The Fun That Got Away
Red and blue pants run
across chaotic screens
controlled by me and one
who nurtures my fragile dreams
I fight the forces of evil
with my father by my side
I can remember the only day
that in his face I cried
he supported me in my endeavors
the man who gave me life
I never meant to cause him pain
or his widow strife
he tried to save me from myself
a quest that still continues
I ask myself every day
if it was truly his life to lose
or was it the hand of God
rescuing one of the lost
from a fate so fucking ugly
when the line of sanity I crossed
and gave up all I ever worked for
trying to live up to his name
failing every task
except those video games
I wonder if he looks down upon me
counting all my lies
that ultimately saved me from
a state mandated demise
I wonder if his heart was pure
or if some ulterior motive
is why he lost his life that day
if it was even his to give
I hope one day when I am free
I'll make him oh so proud
or if old habits come to me
smoking all that loud
three seconds is all it took
to change my life forever
the path of rightousness I forsook
when I sent him to the ether
depression is my only friend
sadness is my bed
I cry every night as I replay
those moments in my head
I should've been me instead.
