Everything I Want


I've never felt this way before
or connected with someone so much.


You are everything I want
and everything I'm afraid to lose.


Paranoia kicks in,
and my mind runs rampant.


It's consumed with thoughts
that you will never love me
as much as I love you.


Why would you ever love me
with all of my flaws?


I feel like a nuisance;
how long until you are tired of me?


This string of negativity
rush through my head
ad nauseum.


I let these words
flow from my eyes
until my heart settles.


A brief weeping calms me
enough to slow the pace
of these racing thoughts.


And I realize only time will tell
if you will reciprocate my feelings.


So I must practice patience
until I know if your heart will be mine.

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For Chris J.

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