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I am who I am
Im out of my mind,
I dont know which way is right.
I don't know if this is the time,
and I don't know who I will see tonight.
Im scared out of my mind,
I don't know why im thinking like this.
I don't know who I am, and I don't know who this is;
This person inside of me, is this who I truly am?
Am I a monster or a lost girl scared of who she has become?
Im out of my mind,
The clock is ticking; everything gets darker.
I can't stand my mind;
I look in the mirror, and I can't control my tears when I'm alone.
I look in the mirror and just cry a flowing river of pitiful tears.
I want to rip my hair out.
I want to peel my skin off like a mascarade mask.
I want to change these eyes for the blue eyes of the unwavering sea.
I want to crush my bones just to make me a tad bit smaller and closer to the expectations.
I want to take my hair of as if it was just a wig and replace it with something as shiny as the moonlight when it reflects.
I want to rip out my heart and mind for they are one and throw it down the well of darkness in my soul; not to be found, and as I become someone else maybe then I would feel Happy, right?
But, what if thats not the case what if I find my own mind again.
What if my old self comes back to haunt me.
Will i drown and suffocate in tears again?
Will I still be scared of who I am?
Will I still see the same person even with a new body?
Will I even be what I want to be?...
I cry another tear as I put my mirror away.
I cry another tear as I try to put my thoughts away.
And I cry yet another tear, hoping it to be my last as I wish for a good nights sleep.
But of course nothing ends anywhere.
Because tomorrow,will be another day;
I probably wont know which way is "right"
I probably would still look the other way of my reflection.
I probably would still try to rid of my lingering thoughts and.. just be as happy as everyone else without having a sudden turn of events.
I will still be trying to hide the little girl inside.
I am me.
I am a monster.
I am just a lost girl within her own demon
