Unwanted Fear

As I awake,

I feel the aches and pains constantly....

In a world I dont even know,

yet all dont know the pain I shed inside....



Unable to ascend my warnings for fear to disturb the flows of life and conspiracy...



The ocean of hate has devoured him....

I thought I knew him....

I thought I knew this sweet taste of love...



Sharing the gift of my beautiful sins with him....

coursing through the abyss together....



I thought I could understand him....

I wish I could be with someone, truely for all life and eternity.......



cannot see it comming now....

for fear that I will drown into the ocean or despair with him...



Feeling lost...

dont know what to do...

feeling the trust wearing thin...

not only with my lover but with the ones I am close with...



the companions I endure my times with...

for fear of them conspiring aganst me....



dont know where to turn...

dont know where fate will guide us all....



is this an obstacle to overcome?

or is this the final stopping point?



Does love really exist?

feeling lonely and unwanted,

at the same time feel to go away....



run away alone and become someone else to avoid this constant fear....



I am confused...

I am distressed.....

only time can tell now......

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