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Many years ago my wonderful sister loved candles.

She would use them all the time until she was on oxygen and we couldn't have them around anymore.

She often would talk about fire and flames in a good way.

She liked the warmth, power, beauty of fire.

Now almost two years that my sister has been gone i think about my fire...

The fire in me that burns that says, never again will I be involved ina same sex relationship or connection.

Never again will I allow my self esteem to be established over someone telling me that they love me yet have no time for me

My fire fuels my passions of writing, singing, being real. and lots of other  things that I do.

Well over 30 days without certain things and enjoying the celibate thing. 

I'm no one's second choice or second in command. 

I am more than big boobs, great booty and tightness. 

I want something more than physical. 

I want to laugh at silly things only my husband and I know about.

I want to cuddle. I want to wake up in the arms of my helpmate. The one who God made me for. 

His, my husband's good thing. 

I am chosen not just called. I deserve to have a man who loves God, is a leader of family who will accept me and my daughter as his and not try to change us. 

My fire isn't about heat of the moment intimate passion. it's my passion for life. To dance in the living room together. cook together, sing togther, worship God together , pray together. 

My fire isn't about a twin flame. it's about a lifetime. In house family dates watching movies, eating junk food aka wings, pizza, popcorn.

Spending quality and quatity time together. Holding hands. Kissing. Hidden glances. Smiles. Opening up to him because I know he won't use it against me.

I'm healing through so much right now between past relationships, grieving of my sister, raising my teenage daughter without her bio father in the picture because of his domestic violence issues and continued patterns of abuse. 

I'm following my calling in ministry, life.

I'm ready for love and to be loved the right way. Married, have my covering and leadership in our family.

I'm standing with my fire to have an eternal flame.