My Armor Holds No More

I told myself I would get over you.
Wash all my thoughts of you
away.

But when you held me against you once again.
I felt
happier than I had felt in weeks.

I will never go back to you.
But
I am sure you felt me relax in your arms.

I had no idea the tension
I had gathered in your missing.
But I lost it all when you came near.

My heart and body say one thing,
My thoughts say another.
I dont know how but once again,

you slipped past my armor.
I dont know why but I feel like I left a hole,
One you couldn't reach unless you truely tried.

But my armors gone, you destroyed it.
And in its place is naked vulnerability.

I said I wouldn't go back to you,
and I wont.
But my heart and body protest, proof of how much I want to give in.

Author's Notes/Comments: 

Don't comment that it has no fluency or controlled way of reading it. I know, I wrote it. It is supposed to be that way.

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