Fear of Waking Up

Mental Illnesses

It is not that I wish to sleep forever

although if that happened

I would not mind.

It is that I fear waking up

because when it happens

I loose my mind.

Somehow it has wandered away

while I rest my head.

I cannot find it.

Sometimes I have a panic attack

when I wake up.

I cannot help it.

I do not know what goes on 

in my sleep.

But I do know,

if I don't sleep forever,

I do not wish to sleep at all.