The Girl In The Shadows

I was always
The girl in
The shadows
Ignored
Until you
Got bored
Enough for
You to care
Enough to
Ridicule me
Poke fun
And laugh at me
Yeah it sucked
And yes it hurt
But hell atleast
You saw me

Or a version of me
Anyway 
The real me

The me I
Wanted to be
Thanks to you

For far too long
I did shy away from
In more fear
Than I could handle 
For much longer
Than I wish to admit
You claimed I deserved it
I now know I didn't
And yet there wasn't
A fucking thing
I could have done
Any different
To avoid any of it
I still don't get it
But I'm proud of that
I don't want to get it
I don't want to be capable

Of understanding
Such senseless evil
I don't want to be
Or understand how to be
Anything like any of you
I would rather
Understand
how to be a good person
And the concept
Of compassion
And building
Each other up
Making people
Want to live
Instead of making
Anyone want to die

Like you did
When it came to
Me, myself, and I 

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