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Yesterday was my sister wouldve turned 60
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Feel To Heal Yesterday you would've turned 60. I got dressed in a beautiful red dress. Felt beautiful inside and out. God made a way for me and your niece to get food from your second favorite place to eat in our little town here in Kansas called Genovia's.
Sis, even the food wasn't the same without you being here. Plus even though I worked really hard for the day to be special and go out because it was your birthday and for me and your niece to celebrate someone we both loved, missed and cared about. She said no she didn't want to go anywhere. Funny anytime her friends want her to go somewhere she's a rocket on time even early. Past few months so much has happened. We left COGIC. We didn't leave God. He didn't leave us. I wish you could hear the narratives that have been said about me in rooms I'm not supposed to know about. Yet they asked me to come back after God himself had to rebuilt me from foundation up between words said, actions, patterns behaviors and still acts of control and manipulation and I'm no longer attending. In fact sent over 3 communications saying I'm done just like over 5 meetings of please fix this and I was the one handled instead of heard. Realization asset they treated like a burden or dirt under theirfeet because she dropped everything for them. Trusted and she recognized that she had given loyalties that were misaligned and they used every private conversation and the one conversation where I became emotionally charged against me. They've been manipulating my daughter since before we left trying to get information. Funny thing my discernment was on track then, God just blessed on a lot of levels. I will let that sit here.
I won't say life has been easy. Your niece had joy, peace, happiness for over 30 days until they decided to drop by and she doesn't feel safe. That as a mom and former federal law enforcement person pisses me off.
Well Sis I was beautiful yesterday. I could've used the self esteem boost to actually go out. I was wearing my lipstick we both had as a favorite. I am down to a size 16. I am stronger spiritually than ever before. We started attending a new church where we are poured into instead of over and appreciated instead of tolerated. It's not a chore to do my devotional daily and pray anymore. Love you and Happy Heavenly Birthday.
