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BackSliding
it’s funny that feeling you get
when the winds blow familiar
it’s like falling back into a moment
that should have been forgotten
or at least hidden beneath
the freefall of time…
but no, that moment takes hold of you
as yesterday claims your soul
and in that instant you remember
every feeling, every whisper, every longing
everything that you don’t want to remember
and yet yearn to relive
or at least
touch just one last time….
I found myself there
listening to your voice
looking for something, anything
to validate yesterday and today
while tearshowers rained from my heart
words desperately tried to form in my mouth
only to find no release
as I pondered what to say to you
I wanted to say so much
to tell you all the things
that lingered restless between us
I wanted you to feel what I feel
maybe to even understand why I felt them
and as I sat there with all that I felt in my heart
teetering on the precipice of my tongue
I just silently held on to all of it
with what dignity I had left
I just knew I couldn’t let it escape,
for fear it would not be understood
and in the end what does it really matter
the reality of it all is
even the truth will never set us free
I could tell you I loved you a thousand times over
that you’re forever a part of me
and that I want nothing more to be a part of you
but the only thing that would do
is remind us both that sometimes
love just isn’t enough….
© LadyRaine
