Idle Moments

Gaps in between, filling me with doubts.
Thoughts threaten to overwhelm me
Reaching out through the darkness
Afraid of what may come.

I must continue though no end seems in sight.
I must focus on the road ahead
The world seems to weigh me down
But this shouldn’t stop me from going on.

I will rest only for a moment
If only to ease the burden for a while
It is in these moments when I question myself and my beliefs
What have I done? Where am I going? Where I am headed?

The answers are within me,
Nowhere else will they be
I rely on myself because only then will I be free
These moments test me, push me down yet motivate me.

I keep giving up time and again
Because this is the only way I know how to face life.
Idle as I may be now
I know that a better tomorrow lies ahead.

I have to take it a step at a time
Because this is what life intended
I cannot move forward to tomorrow
Without getting through today.

It is the road ahead
It is the path before me
It is life…..

Author's Notes/Comments: 

When I lost my job...I felt so low.

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