my so-called family

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Feelings...

forgotten

no one knows what i've been through

what ive had to deal with

                 on my own

                 surviving barely with no help

no concern



                                 (what did i do to you)?

education remained important

offspring

           healthy

           happy

but

none of that matters to you

my black clothes concern you

tattoos are unappealing

beliefs are different

                                but

im a real person inside

with

feelings

cares

concerns

talent

and because i dont live my life

according to your plan  

                                                  theres something wrong with me

im the black sheep

i get that

                but

doesnt the black sheep need love too?





not in your book

im

forgotten

shucked to the side

worries of drugs

               alcohol

               promiscuity

               illegalities

rule your mind

when those things were a part of life

you had no idea

you had no worries

you had no concern



time has been wasted

time has passed where things should have happened already

for me

but how ...

without any support from you

your religious cult of choice would shun you if they knew

                                                              

                                                                          (if only they knew)

how youve treated me

how you treat me



uncalled for

unbelievable hatred for myself because of you

cause im constantly reminded

of how much im not wanted

uncared for

disregard of

disgusted by

                                                                                me....



what did i do to you?

what did i do?



forgotten

i

am

by you

and

thats a good thing

cause when im gone  





                                        you wont remember who i am anyway .....

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