Premade Memories

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Early 20s

I could lie,
Pretend that all of this
Is a huge surprise:
Every look,
Every touch,
All the kind words,
And each sweet kiss.
But to say I never expected it,
Would simply be,
Inaccurate.

If you must know,
I planned it all,
(In a sort of way).
I hoped and wished so much
That somehow,
Someway these
Wishes and hopes
soon became
Tangible remembrances.

I often fill my head
With memories
That will never happen.
But suddenly now,
I am experiencing moments
That I already made up
In my imagination

That may be the only surprise;
The reality of it all..

Truth be told,
The one moment
I’m waiting for,
Is a memory
I don’t have yet;
The end...
I don’t know how it will be:
Whether this long planned
Hope and wish,
Is something more
Than just premade memories.

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Written July 2011

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