The Dying Poet's Nearly Final Moments

The dying poet in the faith at last---
now born again, baptized, part of the church---
thought of some poems, the oldest of his past,
and deemed them virtueless:  no need to search
for anything, he thought, that could refine
the giddy sense of blasphemous rebellion,
veiled in each dignified and stately line;
the changeless words of one (once) heathen hellion.
He prayed, "Lord, in Your mercy, You received
"me at the very moment I believed.
"But these poems twist my joy in this Salvation,
"and seem to bear the bent of real damnation."
But then that still, small voice---gentle but sure---
said, "Lay back on your pillow; rest from cares
"like this.  Remember, as a carpenter,
"with my stepfather I worked:  in repairs
"we specialized---much like words' editor.
"Look forward now.  Do not make the past's errors
"giants, like old Goliath---boastful terrors.

"That which, in your opinion, has been bent
"can be pounded right out, a simple dent.
"Trust me.  Redemption will have its own way,
"in its own time with neither rush nor hurry.
"Lay back, rest now, not tormented by worry.
"Gladly embrace the closing of the day."

 

Starward

Author's Notes/Comments: 

This poem came so unexpectedly that I feel some notated explanation is appropriate.

 

The character of the poet was inspired by Wallace Stevens and his somewhat famous deathbed conversion (which many scholars have attempted to question; but apparently, it was a witnessed fact); although the character's thoughts about early poems are entirely fictional.

 

The dent to be pounded out is an allusion to Ezra Pound. his failed cantos tossed out from the eternal poetic canon; in my opinion.

 

The still small voice's allusion to repair carpentry is based on an early Christian legend that Joseph, stepfather of Jesus, was a repair carpenter who worked along a route among the farms of Galilee.  One notices that several of Jesus' parables use farming and agrarian imagery, while none of them talk about building furniture or anything else in a carpentry shop.  I think this lends high credibility to the legend.

 

The still small voice alludes to Matthew 11:28-30, Philippians 3:14, and 1 Kingdoms 17.

 

The last line is an allusion to the conclusion of Cordwainer Smth's short story, "The Ballad Of Lost C'Mell."

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