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Jealousy
Jealousy
tearing things apart
I'm starting to think too much
I'm going back, back to the start
Back to when I thought
you'd be better off with her
when I thought you didn't love me
that I was nothing but a burr
easily picked off
easily replaced
I hate that I'm in love with you
my heart has been misplaced
I never wanted to fall in love
just try things out for a bit
I should've known this would happen though
My mind feels like it's been lit
I'm burning up inside
angry at no one but me
all I can say is shit
Things are great but as bad as can be
I don't know what to do with these feelings
I need someone to help me get over this
show me there's someone better
and that i can break up with him and still feel bliss
I feel like I'm drowning
in this well I've constructed
all my walls are let down
and my heart is fractured
I want to go back to me
the girl that never cried
never got mad about stupid things
lived her life, and knew it wasn't a lie
that girl who was never unsure
confident at all times
didn't have to worry about love
and knew her time would eventually come sometime
the girl who had more on her mind
than just that one special guy
The girl who could focus, who got good grades
now to my old life, I bid goodbye
I hope I can meet that me again someday
and I hope I can be happy once more
I hope I learn to live without him
and my life becomes more than a bore
I want to be so much more
and feel like I am deserving
but this jealousy that keep eating at me
it's just so unnerving
I know people who are jealous of me
knowing I have someone like him
but now I'm starting to think
things went too fast, the passion is dim
I'm scared of these feeling I have
although I know I should be used to them by now
I'm so tired of these mood swings
I feel like such a cow
I'm cheating my parents everyday
lying to them every day
this is not who I want to be
but losing him is not a way
It's no longer become an option
and I know I'd die without him
He's become my everything
but what if it was never meant to be him?
I want to explore my options
not feel tied down by one guy
I want to find the perfect one for me
not settle or compromise
I want to see if there's more
but I never want to lose him
I make no sense, I know
My whole mind just feels so dim
I can't think straight anymore
I feel like I'm going crazy
I thought love was supposed to be blissful
so why is it so scary?
