Can't Find Happiness

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November 2006

How can I feel so angry

How can I be so mad

These tears wont stop falling

Why do I feel so sad

How did I let life get like this

How did it get this bad

Lately I am angry all the time

Cannot find happiness

Wondering if it even exists

I cannot understand this

Whenever something gets this way

I resort to cutting myself

It seems that is the only happiness I can find

Running around in mad confusion

I cannot find any peace of mind

I punch the wall in my anger

This person I have become is a stranger

I no longer know who I am

This person I see staring back at me

Through the mirror

Is nothing like the real me

Who is this girl with scars and bruises

Who is this girl with rage written all over her face

No longer do I long to go on living

I am ready to go

Ready to leave this place

I have no hope left inside

Feels completely empty

All chances for happiness have died

I raise the knife

Watching as it gleams in the light of the sun

Then I lower it to my wrist

I will end it all

With a story written in my flesh

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