Lose/Lose Situation

I cannot be comfortable in my own skin-

It itches uncontrollably because

I believe I am not worthy of company.



I don’t even wait for people to reject me-

I reject myself for their sake

As if I’m doing them a favor.



Am I though?



Or are my motives simply selfish

And I’d rather not give them

The chance to hurt me?



But when I feel so alone,

I blame them for accepting

My ultimatums at face value.  



But if someone tries too hard

To maintain our friendship

I try even harder to run away.



There is no way to win with me.

If you accept my wishes, you lose.

If you seek me out, you lose.

Author's Notes/Comments: 

Inspired by: “The worst loneliness is to be uncomfortable with yourself.”

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