I've fallen for someone I've never touched,
a heart I've never held against my own.
Yet somehow, through a glowing screen,
you've become the place I call my home.
I've memorized the sound of your laughter,
found comfort in the words you say.
But nothing hurts quite like the silence
when those words begin to fade away.
I stare at a screen that doesn't answer,
while questions tear my mind apart.
Did I say something?
Did I hurt you?
Or have you found another heart?
Are you busy?
Are you hurting?
Are you somewhere safe tonight?
Or am I slowly losing someone I've been holding onto tight?
Are you giving someone else the moments
I've been desperately waiting for?
Am I still the one you think about,
or just a name you once adored?
And God, I hate these endless questions,
the battles raging in my head.
How silence turns into a thousand fears from all the things you've never said.
I cannot read your eyes for answers,
cannot see the truth upon your face.
I can only trust the words you give me
while loving you from another place.
They say that distance makes love stronger,
but they never speak about the cost.
Of loving someone you've never held
and fearing everything could be lost.
And sometimes there's a darker question that quietly tears my soul in two.
What if the day I finally meet you is the day I have to lose you?
What if our first embrace is our last?
What if reality changes everything we've known?
What if the love we built through calls and texts
cannot survive beyond the phone?
Would you look at me the way you promised?
Would your heart still recognize mine?
Or would I become a beautiful mistake that only existed online?
Still, I dream about that first hello,
the moment distance disappears.
When I can finally touch the person I've loved through uncertainty and tears.
But until that day,
I'm left here wondering, with a heart that doesn't know what to do.
Because I've never been afraid of loving..
I've been afraid of loving someone who might stop loving me too.
And maybe that's the cruelest truth of a love I've never physically known.
You can make someone your entire world and still be left staring at a silent phone.