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I gotta get rid of these thoughts in my head

think of something, anything else instead

I want to wash and drain them out of my mind

but everytime I try the thoughts they just unwind

I want to stop breathing if it's the only thing that stops them

I look into the mirror and see this person that I know I must condemn

I am hating myself, driving myself mad, I hate the way I feel

I want to protect myself from myself , I want to have a shield



but it's not that simple, you know it's not that easy

everytime the thoughts cross my mind I get so queasy

I am under the influence of the chemicals in my brain

and it is my talent to drive myself completely insane

make me want to hate myself, hurt myself, do what I have to

to get this out of my mind, I hope I can find, a way to get through



something is wrong with my heart, it doesn't beat for me

something is wrong with my eyes because they can't see

I am avoiding myself, avoiding my thoughts, avoiding my feelings once more

but this is becoming something, an obsession that I can't seem to ignore

I want to pull the life out of me so that I don't have to think about this another hour

cause it's taking me over a problem that is too big for me to finish, for me to devour

I am on my knees, I am unable to stand, my legs won't lock

I have gone and brokedown in a sort of serious compelling shock



cause it's not that simple, you know it's not that easy

everytime the thoughts cross my mind I get so queasy

I am under the influence of the chemicals in my brain

and it is my talent to drive myself completely insane

make me want to hate myself, hurt myself, do what I have to

to get this out of my mind, I hope I can find, a way to get through