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Self-Esteem
Pacing around this time of montionless energy,
Contimplating on what to say,
Ready to tell her off, once and for all,
As she walks in, I lose my nerve to speak,
I take her back, and she uses me again,
I know it's not right, that I should have better,
What can I say? I think I'm in lust,
She only wants me, she tells me this,
Then I wonder why, I catch her with my friends,
Dialated, staring at the sun,
Wishing that I had more self esteem,
As it is, I'm half in my grave,
Raising a child I know is not mine,
Operating, I've blown a fuse,
Rythmic heart beats, I'm gonna lose,
Twitching in my sleep, trying not to cry,
I know I brought this on me,but can't you see? I'm in lust,
Not caring if I'm being used,
Only wanting for what I think is fair,
Mistreated all of my days,
Nothing new, changing is bad,
That's the last words I ever heard,
From my dad, as he sufficated me,
Laying dead, pillow on my face,
It would seem he felt pity on me,
On my way to the gates I am used to,
Into hell for my lust, in sin of my own being,
As it goes, I fell short,
Now I'm looking back to the world,
Seeing my old man, fucking my girl.
