I have thrown your books
of so called teaching to the floor
mind was grown out of the belief
you truly do exist
till my heart wounded with venomous thorns
body on floor
hand lifted to grasp invisible hopes
my heart moans
acid tearing my inner thoughts
in a pool of thick blood
I sink like quick sand
hope it can be soon
so I can end this grief
bless me with thunderstorm
make the oval forms the size of watermelons
so there would be a trace of my tears
skeleton shaking not for fear
is December and I have no sweater in hand
even my skin has departed its own way
more than what I ask for you to bring
lifted me up drag me to your kingdom
all you did for me
how can I refuse to belief
brought me out of my grief
now mind slowly builds thoughts of relief
so at night I fall to my knees
your words stick to my heart
I give you my life
I give you my faith
but I will refuse to go to church everyday
bunch of hypocrites some may be
using your name to gain wealthy economy
so in my house I will pray and say
thank you for what you have done
yet I will apologized
for I have my love ones on mothers soil
so till the day of my removal
I will try to convinced you
I am needed more here than with you
yet I am thankful for been alive
for you to set my expression tools in front of my eyes
within my own heart
-che