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i've been in the shadows for to long,

lying to myself,

feeding on the bullshit i lead myself to believe,

i believed that you were the one for me,

i believed that i couldn't push you out the way,

i believed in you,

i believed in the feelings that i have,

well that i had....if i have it my way,

i can't keep letting this shit happen,

not to me at least,

i'm better than that,

i hate myself  for what i've done to myself,

allowing myself to cry,

allowing this stupid situation to get the best me,

i mean look at what's happened,

it's all over,

i've finally come to the realization,

that you could give two buckets of piss about me,

i've come to realize that you're better off with him.....than with me,

these last ditch attemps to hold on to what i thought was something good,

just proves that i've been blind all along,

i've been trying to hold on to nothing,

except this fucking dream world,

all my words.......useless breath i guess,

it has come to the point where i wish it didn't have to come to,

i now have to get over you,

in my own way,

i have to fight as hard as i can to ignore this disappoint that i feel,

this self disappointment because i feel like a fuckin clown,

i feel like this path that you're going down is useless,

he's useless....more like a convenience than a love interest,

a fuckin convenience that's all,

(and if "you" have something to say....than fuckin say it,)

i wish i didn't have to do this,

cause i actually love you beyond Heaven itself,

but i can't let you run my life,

so with this i say i'm sorry for the decision that you made,

cause when he fucks up on you....if he hasn't already,(hmmm,that's a

thought)

i won't be there to pick up the pieces,

i won't allow myself to be the go to guy anymore,

you made your choice,

and now i've made mine,

i no longer have any business with you,

because while you're with him......your little convenience,

i'm sorry but i don't think,

you have any business left with me.......(ccm)

(hint,hint)

i now know that i have to go...attend

hut...left,left,left,right,left).......bye......i'm so sorry