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I do have happiness
I find it all around me

a rainy day
a perfect rose
sun shining down
on smiling faces
children's laughter
God's daily blessings

can't let myself succumb
completely
but can't find my way out

I've always been able
to maintain a happy heart
but lately its slipping away
and the loss terrifies me
more than I can say

for without happiness
what is there left
the pain I live with daily
both physical and emotional
has only been endured
because I've always had happiness
in my heart until now

I'm letting myself down
this I know well
I feel such a loss
losing happiness from my heart
too many emotions chasing through

wanting so badly to live and be happy
not wanting to die yet
too much life left to live
too much love left to give

there must be an answer
to this approaching dilemma
turning to God,
waiting for answers
believing and trusting
having faith and knowing
they will come in due time

so tired of all the isolation
but grateful for friends I've found
even though they're there for me

jh/4-11