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Father right now all I want to do is cry

This is all I want to do

Because I feel something dwelling deep within

I feel something building up

Please Lord help me to carry on



I caved in again, and I let ya down

These migraines are not going away

I just want these thoughts to be cast away



Daddy I just want to cry

Cuz I let myself down

I didn't listen

My heart is so hardened

Jelousy took me apart

Peice by peice

It litterally tore my heart apart



I let unforgiveness come between you and I

I let lust reign in this life

Even though I did not want to do it

I still caved into the temptation

Cuz I didn't see myself as worth something



I didn't see myself as someone courageous

I didn't see myself as a person who deserved this great life

A great life you promise to us all

I just kept on building on to this wall

adding baggage and competition to the foundation

I tried so hard to let others in

But I kept doing it in the wrong way

Father I was so afraid

That if I just let my true self show

That I would have no one to turn to

I would have no where to go



but confidence comes with a cost

It come's with accepting who I am

cuz you say I am fearfully and wonderfully made

I just want those thoughts to penetrate

penetrate this heart that has been broken many times

I want to feel the comfort, peace and joy in this life



No more living like hell on earth

Cuz of what I thought I was worth

I never thought I was worth a great job

Never thought I was worth what you promised

But when the thing I love leaves

I do nothing but grieve

Cuz I lost something so special

That I was so scared to pursue

But then it's gone,

And it's a life I got so used to

I adapted to loss

Adapted to never wanting the new

Cuz I never wanted to let go of the past

Never wanted to let go of those hurts

cuz I was so scared they'd replay over and over again



Lord I am scared but I am ready to press on

Please be my strength to stare fear right in the face and not back down

Help me not to back down, not giving up

Help me to approach the girl with confidence

Help me to approach this life with power

The power of the living God is in me



Help me to shine your light

And show others what this life can truly be

Help me to know more of who I am

Because right now I just want to fight back