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Father I'm so irritable right now

I could never expect anyone to understand

The complexities going on in this mind

I could never expect anyone to know who I am  



The parnoia thunders

The thoughts crack and break who I am

I can't carry on, Father how can I carry on

I can't even sleep, hunger pains dig in so deeply

Pressure is built all around me

You have to do everything so perfectly

I'm fed up with compromise

Come on do what everyone else is doing

I'm constanly facing a battle

But I need you God, I need you to be my everything

No matter what anyone else says

How then could they understand

That I refuse to be one of them



I'm dying Lord please save me

Because I'm barely hanging on

These thoughts shout at me

I scream right back, shutup just shutup

And I'm tripping out

I'm ready to black right out

But I can't seem to sleep

no matter how hard I try

I can never seem to live my life

Even somewhat normally



Why does everyone stare

And why doesn't anyone even care?

How can they not understand

that I refuse to compromise

Hey this in God's timing

And I refuse to follow you humans

Who think they are right

Who allow circumstance to control your life

Well grow up, cuz I've had enough

of you bullying around in my life



I am struggling so much God

and this is where I wonder if I am wrong

I just want to do what it right

Do what is right in your eyes

I obey, and I try, and you know my heart you hear my cries

But I only feel you fading distantly

As this darkness sets in, takes the stage in my life

I see the clouds rolling in

And sometimes I can't do anything

I ask you to remove this thorn from my flesh

But sometimes you don't say anything



I'm just so messed up right now

Paranoid right to the bone

I don't know where to go

But still run to you knowing

That I will always and forever have hope



I'm a basket case, I feel so stupid

I feel like I've rambled on to nothing

I've messed up far more than I can even comprehend

And tonight I just feel like dying

Even though I know I've done right

Father almighty God I'm having such a hard time