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Lord I am every bit undeserving of blessings

And I feel torn inside right now

I feel like I've betrayed you

And I feel like I'm not worth

Anything that you abundantly give or do



I've placed my life in your hands

Time and time again

Yet I fell into the same trap again

I did it even when I wasn't tempted

And I wonder how I could have been so stupid



I wonder to myself, do I really fear you Lord?

Am I being true to myself or to you?

When I say I just want to let it all go?

Am I truly living for you or for myself?

I just wished this would all disappear

Lord give me strength to have victory over this battle



You know my heart

And sometimes I fear the worst

I wonder if you'll beat me over the head with a stick

Because of what I've done, makes me numb, making me sick

I'm every bit undeserving

And I'm always wondering

Why did I give in this time?

I got such a headache from all I do

Now I am wondering why I deserve you?



I feel like I am a liar before my fellow christians

I feel like I am being so deceptive

Yet I worship you everyday

And crave your presence in my life

And with out you I would vegitate and die

I would litterally cry with no hope in sight

My whole entire soul would wither away

And I would never desire to be in your light



But what's my life really worth?

I can't explain this in words

But without you I truly hurt