Done Something Wrong

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Abuse

Why don't you hold me anymore?

Don't you even realize how you make me feel?

Or does that even matter to you anymore?



I know it hurts to come home to someone like me



Because your face says it all

All I can seem to do is bawl

Because I see the hate through the window to your soul





You pretend I do not exist

That's when I get sucked down into this pit



I know I am not worthy of your love

Even though the slapping, and emotional abuse is wrong

I know I must have done something wrong

because you still make love to me after it all



Is this what love is?

Because I do not know if I would miss it



I am sure that if you were gone?

My whole life would shut down

I don't think I could handle life without you by my side

The only memories would be these two black eyes



You correct any mistakes and wrong features you've found in me

All I do is sit on this bed hyperventalating

You're out so late every night

I miss you so much I cry

I just need someone out there to hold me tight



Because I miss you, oh man I really miss you

How am I going to pull through this night?

Wondering if I should call you

Would that be alright?

Would this upset you

Just to check up on how you're doing

Because you're my one and only sweety

For you I would do anything

Author's Notes/Comments: 

I  really do not know what to think of this. I think it's all over the place, but who knows. I will come back to it later and edit. But I tried to think like a woman who's been abused for years by her husband.  From what i've seen the woman feels so worthless, she figures she doesn't even deserve the guy she is with. even though he continually beats her, and sees flaws in her that angers him so much.   But ya i've been trying to write this on 2 pills of Benedryl. Super super drowsy pills! YIKES!

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