they said I should just forget an move on
erase that chapter in life
what if I can't
what if I don't want to forget
what if the worst that that they've seen is
the best I've ever had
what if even though she left me cold
never even saying good by I'd still be willing
to die for her
what if I can't just erase eleven years of our lives
what if I still feel her presence when I look in to our
children's eye's
what if for five years now she's been looking for those
fabled greener pastures
while I still find myself reaching across a empty bed
wondering if maybe their right , I am brain dead
no I don't really expect her to be there
but sometimes I still wonder
what if
~ D Donner ~
Author's Notes/Comments:
I've loved three women in My life
totally an unconditionally none more than the other
just differently
the first love of my life ended as many do
We were to young an naive to be able to battle past
the what if's while the rest of the world was pushing an pulling
trying to keep us apart
succeeding by using our own love for each
convincing us it was better for the other
The second love I made her my wife
she gave me a gift of love only a woman can My Son !
I like to think we'd still be together today after 29 years
but some force took her away after being married 10 almost 11 years
(massive coronary of the heart at the age of 32)
The third I proposed to told her when she was ready set a date
We raised 4 kids happily together for eleven years
They all claim me as dad to this day
when the last one was out of school an basically on their own
I came home one night to a empty house except for the dog
She said later she needed "Her Time" that she'd never had ?
what ever that means ?
this one is for/about Her I guess cause I still wonder What If !
~ D D ~
