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Became
A handsome face was all I saw of you
What were you all about I had not a clue
Standing tall with a river of dark eyes
Came to me with a lustful surprise
Nappy hair, a perm of no trace
Fitted the description of your handsome face
Your body's not perfect but you have such beautiful caramel skin
That covers your arms structured so thin
Rebellion saught you but it is not it you saught
In acts of Rebellion its my eye you have caught
Personal knowledge of you was given by phone
And some of these things I knew of weren't thought of alone
My imagery of you was within an affectionate hold
Beginning to act upon releasement as things began to unfold
Consoler of mine whenever I felt sad
Reminding me of the power weakness had
Never there was a failure for you to give me a hand
Your heart was as pure and soft as the grained sand
Corruptive at times you were because life so tricky had done you wrong
A sequence of events heard of in a sad song
Healment of my broken heart you suddenly gave
From suicidal thoughts it was me you saught to save
My extra shoulder whenever I felt deprived
Made me realize where our friendship thrived
Intense talk of passion, exotic matters, and a sexual guarentee
Made me in all realize you were the one for me
Sadness in all took a high-leveled toll
Realization proved without you my heart just wasn't whole
My love for you came to me like the surprise of Jove
My heart felt great heat emitting like a stove
My heart would be testimonial even within court
Of no other's heart would I make out of a sport
Upon freeness I give to you my imploring vow
To have love for forever even now
I owe it to myself to forward this prestigious self-indictment
After trusting upon belief that for me you were heaven sent
Only your friend I could never portray
I'll love you forever if I may say
In this non-trustworthy world I'll always remain your fan
Whether famous or not you'll always be a humble man
My love towards you is like the unchangeable sea great in strength and will always excel
Suddenly I've become deaf I love you more than my capacious heart can tell
Somehow I wish it was my feelings I could deliver
That every time you pass me my soul is so quick to shiver
If I had told you I loved you would you have believed
That all your fantasies would soon be achieved?
You looked at me times too many with an eye of delight
I wonder if I was beauty noticed within your sight
Laughed with me and joked with me like a friend should
You were the one person like me that I've ever understood
You walked with me 100 miles to safety, 100 miles to security
This lets me know your heart still possesses purity
If I were to have a reflection within the mirror yours would be much similar to mines
There's no need sugar-coat it baby read between the lines
Every time we meet by the source of eye contact far within view
I some how wanted to mumble out these words "I love you."
You're the seed of my seed, pollen of my flower
My mind is consumed by thoughts of you just about every hour
You're the lyrics to my song the voice of my vocal
I sometimes wish your heart was open to me and local
You're the sagacity I hold strongly within my brain
You're my treatment when I needed to be sane
You're my luck. You fill me with your charms
I now a wait the embracement of your arms
Stars are plenty within the misty night sky
As I look to the lord and ask him, "Why can't I have him, just tell me why?"
Every night and day there's a constant reminder in hopes that we would pair
That I would stop the pain, stop the despair
My soul has dealt with the agonized pain
My hopes, my dreams of you are now being slain
One kiss, one taste, one look, one touch,
I don't believe would be asking off too much
There's a special prayer to the lord I want to say on bending knee
God please make this boy fall, fall in love with me
There's a hole in my heart that's very dim
That grows tremendously whenever my conscious says I can't have him
A lonesome call echoes within me so hard, so deep
I find myself turning repeatedly within a taunted sleep
Mentally I felt sick my skin was suddenly pale
When I had to learn that in this case love seemed to never prevail
Knowledge hurts when I knew from you I would never get that B-friend and G-friend thrill
I guessed I waited too long. I postponed the way I feel
Never have I thought love so invisible would take me up under its shield
And leave me to be tormented on hatred's ominous field
Marked by scars, tears of an ambigous cry
Shows me how love for me always says good-bye
Love's weakness I understand takes away many hearts, minds, and souls
Leaves them to build back upon plans, their life, their goals
It took me for granted, for me it had no care
It saught to wipe me out of existence. It didn't matter where
My humiliation it saught to publicize
It didn't matter if costly it brought about my demise
Is this ideal of us being together only within my conception?
An exit to all I have suffered, starting with deception
Locked within me so deeply is a strilled yelp
So you see I seek guidance, I seek help
How easily I am distracted by temptation. How easily I am lured
Love has no boundaries for me. It can't be cured
As wrong as it had done me I didn't want it to be something I'd dread
Because it had me all confused and mixed up in the head
Some how I knew falling in love with you would soon however become a threat
Actually I've known this since the day we first met
I've taken to much stress. Some where down the line I need to be relieved
There's too many concepts within this world to be received
Some where in this phase in my life I wanted a path of simple direction
To put ends to this situation of nonsensical neglection
Patiently I've been waiting for you. No longer can I hold my composure
I've put my love through so many phases. I've put it through so much exposure
Quarry I am to love. Am I now the hunt?
Or am I the victim it seeks now to patriotically confront
I come correct. I don't want to face my heart's terrible grim
To not have you feel me up satisfactionally to the brim
My mind so vulnerable is devoured by an irremissible thought
Reminding me that loving you is a blessing not a fault
In you I some how seemed amazed
So it is important for my feelings to never be razed
Especially when it comes to this boy
He's the essence of me. My spirit, my inner joy
I could never, never give my love to another
Sadly for me there is no other
I have fallen for your charm as well as your wit
Not knowing that you targeted my heart with a direct hit
Around you I can't breathe. I can't think. My hormones wont behave
Maybe I'm just glad you're a gentlemen rather than a knave
Everyday you have and effect on how I live
But you haven't seen the best I could possibly give
If loving you is somehow a crime
Then put me in my own cell and give me my time
My love, heart, soul, and feelings all seem to now linger
And then I become as expressive and open as a singer
I wish that in my heart you'd always stay
Then life would be favored and structured in my very own way
Our lifestyles will never let us be
The couple in my visions I now repeatedly see
My emotions like a river of forceful water runs so deep
As I now hold you in my heart. It's yours for the keep
You think I like it knowing you're in possession of my heart's key
Knowing that in the long run you and I could never be
I wanted you in the flesh not just in these temporary dreams
But that will never be accomplished that is how it seems
It's too late, my ship already a float began to sink
It doesn't matter how I feel. It doesn't matter what I think
Love has made me dumb not smart
It gave me no hope from the start
I have no time to tell you what my love may really mean
There's so much to put out there. There's so much you haven't seen
I love you, I love you, I love you times two-million
I love you trippled to a zillion
I leave you hoping you honestly believe all this
That when you're gone it's you I'll miss
Oh God I love thee
Who will soon be graduating from the class of '03
He makes me reminisce about what I could have had
That's why I'm so down in spirit. I'm so very sad
He'll soon be off to college wherever his path leads
There's a brighter future ahead so I hope he succeeds
I now fully confess
That if you ever left I'd still love you more and never less
Some day I hope you come to find
That you always held within capativity my mind
It's amazing how you're the only one that for me wanted me under the instruction of you to be tamed
It lets me know your not the one to be gamed
I've loved you in the past
Now it's time for me to futuristically make it last
I will always look at you the very same
These are all the things you suddenly to me became
