i wouldn't even know myself

i've never felt more disgusted with myself

then when I'm with you
   you make me feel ashamed to be sick
as if I chose to
would you know it if my stomach acid was on you?
i haven't suffered menses in 4 months, what can you do
more then half my hair is gone
i'll tear it out
over half my love was strong
but i've got doubts
because i'm screaming and it's crashing all around me
because you take the air from my lungs and hold me under 'till you drown me
i was within the sweetest part of myself until you found me
and dragged me out
emaciated, but did you anticipate less?
i'll never find my way back in you leave me undressed
my hollow skin is grey, and there's no flesh
and no clear signs of life (anywhere are left)
you beat me down
all I ask is how many more bruises 
you thrash me out
until i'm crippled weak and useless
do i even want to know
how deep this hurt can go
I am so completely ill
strangle me another way
until it satiates your thrill
just go in for the kill
you've killed the fight in me
                                         
View catherine's Full Portfolio