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The Struggle
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Poetry So I fucked up again
It was the last straw
So I listen to my wife bawl
I can't seem to do anything right
She says she's gonna leave
I can't blame her
Knowing about the father she favors
I'm the one that never lied to her
But now I have I broke my promise
To be the best she's ever had
To never make her sad
I fucked up and broke her heart
I lied because the truth was hard
The truth sounded like a lie
Now I have to say goodbye
To the love of my life
So I sit here and contemplate death
Think about everything I did wrong
And write this little song
And try to put my feelings to paper
Usually it's so easy
To put words to paper
But tonight it's hard and tapered
It seems they were connected to her
Without her noone will know
About my true feelings
Or my dark meanings
It all locks up
Inside my soul
She was the key
The key to the true me
Because inside there's a storm
Destroying me from the inside
Without her my feelings recess
I resolve to being depressed
What's the fucking point
With noone to go home to
Nothing left for me anymore
Nothing left in store
Almost everyone gave up on me
My wife, my grandparents, even the military
You ever been called a waste of time?
So I stand on this bridge looking for a rhyme
To finish this piece of shit song
I'm staring down at the water
I want it to hold me
I want it to caress me
The water used to be my best friend
Now maybe it can be again
It can fill every cell in my body
As I feel it envelop me
It gives me the strength to breathe
With the gills i so desperately need
So I take one deep breath
And I envision death
As i gasp once more for air
It fills every cell
I start to feel cold
And weak like I'm getting old
But I know it'll be over soon
As I walk towards that warm embrace
Death isn't sad like everyone thinks
Death seems nice or so I think
There's a bright white light
And alot of warmth
And I swear through the light I see a face
I'm excited and my heart starts to race
Is this God I see?
Then the white is yellow
I come up confused and angry
Who the hell "saved me"?
But there's no one there
I'm alone again
Or maybe not
I still have the thoughts
Inside my head
The struggle is back
The struggle is real
Maybe now you can begin to see what I feel
The struggle I deal with everyday
